about this boy...

Rant Time

I don't think I've ever been this busy, really. It is not the same "busy" like being busy at conferencing days where if you put in hours of extra work, things will be fine. This busy is the kind where you think and think and can't think anymore. Pure metal exhaustion, that makes me feel like collapsing from the inside and possibly regretting the day I ever got my University degree that puts me here in the first place.

So here's the thing: I've got two CEOs to serve (one in-coming and the other out-going), three managers who each will never really know how much work has been assigned, two teams (the other team linked to the out-going CEO's company) and previously, two departments. I keep telling myself that things will ease and slow down soon, but "soon" is taking its time to arrive. In the meantime, I do work for each CEO, manager, team and department as if I exists for them solely.

Here's the second catch. For the first time ever (so far that I've gotten to know), I have become one of those people that you simply don't know why you hate. I'm sure you've met some people where you can't put a finger on what exactly it is that you dislike, but you sure don't like them! Not to everyone, but I can tell of two particular people who don't like me that way.

I will shamefully admit that I've been Miss Popular, Miss Student Body President, and almost the equivalent of a high school cheerleader. Being liked was not a problem at all! But I don't think it bothers me so much that they don't like me. On one hand it is confusing that I simply don't know what to do about it, but really, they make my work life miserable. And when they make work miserable, it somehow eats at my ego.

I've been in this mildly depressed state, short of crying that my world is caving in. But a bit of yoga, soon a gym membership, going for classical music concerts, lots of cooking may do the trick to increase those happy hormones, and in turn, a happy me. After all, only a couple more months to go before I no longer work with the second team.

Come end of November, it will be one CEO, one team, one department... erm, but still three managers.