Friday, March 31, 2006

Women and birthdays

women and birthdays

I'm so tired... Just finished a supper birthday surprise for a girl friend.

There were six slices of delicious cakes from Bakerzin. Rather than buying a whole cake, we just thought a few slices would be more delightful to the palate.

Wine glasses tied with ribbons (friends were supposed to get a bottle of wine but they forgot! So I had to whip up a last minute ribena).

A long stem African Daisy with a ribbon (if you have not guessed the theme yet).

Sweet red watermelon arranged artfully on a plate.

Three other friends were invited.

A yell of happy birthday, big smiles and cheerful conversation.

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The thing about surprise birthdays are that you don't let them know until the moment itself.

Nasty girl politics come to play here. She bought a cake for my birthday and perhaps expected I do the same.

I pretended not to know and told her I wasn't doing anything.

She was spiteful. I got insults after that.

Now what the heck is that?!

Thursday, March 30, 2006

geylang

Just dinner, no *desserts please

My independent study on Peter Singer is finally completed and handed in to the department office barely three minutes before the deadline at 5pm. Many thanks to senior *Sheer who "almost died" from correcting my grammar and spent 3 hours with me on the phone to not only give me an edited draft with suggestions but why I made the mistakes I did (you know, the give a man a fish vs teach a man to fish proverb?) I am gratefully indebted.

But horrified with the level of my academic writing proficiency. It is *delightful the little surprises that *get you a month till graduation.

Nonetheless, the professor has seen my paper's draft, is fond of it, and assures me a minimal B+, prolly more after the edit. Damn*t, that is not enough!

To celebrate the completion of the paper, *Gallant and I went to Geylang, Singapore's Red Light District. It sure has the makings to attract local men - women, food and durians.

I suggested we went to Geylang as I have never been there and friends have been raving about the food. Boyfriend dearest suggested we check out the *ladies of the night. I firmly put my foot down that we were only there for dinner, but no *desserts. We were joking, of course!

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I don't know why *Joone's sturgeon dish looks so good.
Mine was a sloppy, oily version.

Dinner started off at Sha Tin Kitchen. It is a Cantonese restaurant that food blogs have been raving about. Unfortunately, it hardly met our minimal standards. We tried their famous sturgeon, a recommended three mushroom on potato basket, and our own choice of stir fried frog legs (because I have never eaten frog). The first two was a disappointment as the presentation was less than desirable (flop food on plate and serve) and extremely oily. *Gallant, a self proclaimed oily food connoisseur commented that the chef's skill was not good as "good chefs can fry food without making it taste as if it was drenched in oil". The frog legs I like. Frog tastes like a cross between chicken and fish. I felt awful though as we later walked around and I saw tank after tank of aquariums filled with live frogs. I feel guilty whenever I eat something out of the usual animal food list of chicken, fish, pork, beef and mutton. The bill was not good too as the oily sturgeon was $38 and the total bill came up to $63 for two of us.

After dinner, we wandered the streets of Singapore's night industry. The women stood around in their national groups as I recalled walking past the Indians, Malays, Singaporeans, PRCs and even Caucasians. They were a mix of sleeze, innocence and desperation. Some faces I still vividly recall such as the very (really) obese woman in a short tube top, auntie with shoulder pads, a woman with her blouse so low part of her nipples popped through, a librarian looking woman with glasses and prudish handbag and a Chinese 'English woman' with coffiered locks and sweet dress.

The night was definitely an eye opener and I have to admit that it was difficult not to walk past these streets without passing judgment and harboring prejudices I thought I would not have. I hung on tight to *Gallant who then remarked: "If you were not here, women would be coming up to me and calling me 'handsome'".

The number of women on the streets was actually more than what I have observed in Thailand. I could not give you a number, but I promise it is hardly a modest figure. *Gallant said that my expression was of disbelief and that I was outright staring at these women. I really couldn't help it. It was difficult to see so many resort to this measure, and even more so when (some) of these beautiful, youthful girls being approached by ugly, old, fat and dirty men. Even more degrading is that there were so many that men walked in groups to ask for prices, and they move from one to another until they can find the 'best bargain'. (Racial remark ahead... sorry!) I could see the disgust and desperation on one sweet Chinese prostitute who was hesitant to lower her prices for a Bangladeshi foreign labourer. It wasn't that I wanted to make a racial observation, but my civil rights classes have shown me how racial groups can be so demeaning stereotyped and I made conclusions about how this girl, should she be racist (I really think she is), feel about having to serve another *type of man.

Then there was another who had her arms locked around an old man, refusing to let him go until he has agreed to her services, and others coyly stroking the arms of the men they would soon have in their $10 an hour motel beds in a short while. But a sweet moment did not escape me, as I saw a man approach one of the ladies, and both of them had the exact, complementing features. Is it wishful thinking if after passionate lovemaking they become a couple? =P

*Gallant and I even stopped by a sex toy shop, and once again, I was stunned to see the variety of unnatural objects people insert into themselves. I don't know how two people (ladies, presumably) would pleasure themselves with a half metre long doublesided dildo, or men being pleasured by two small fake stumps passing off as breasts.

Where is the sanctity of sex? Sadly, *Gallant had to truthfully add that even he feels that the sanctity of marriage, but not sex, is the new age thing.

And in the midst of this sin trade, are religious alters, many temples, churches, clans and martial arts associations. It was a pity, that in a clash of two stark opposite cultures (sex and religion) it was the former that was more predominantly seen. The bus of passing tourist who had their nose pressed to the window, looking out for these ladies will tell you that.

The night ended quite innocently with the only purchase being Geylang's famous soya bean pudding (tau foo fah) and $30 worth of fruits (durians, mangosteens, mangos, oranges, plums, apples and pears). When we approached the store, the fruit uncle told us that we looked so sweet together, and gave us two (extra) sweet mangosteens to symbolize the two people in love. Tonight, we celebrated (not in a grand way) 11 months of being together.

Monday, March 20, 2006

All I want for any occasion

All I Want for *insert any occasion here* is a Tiffany's

Ladies, I urge you to click on the magnificent piece of jewelry on the side and marvel at its iridescent, delicate, heavenly qualities.

I have fallen in *love with this beautiful piece: Tiffany Voile bangle, medium. Round diamonds, 2.47 carat total weight, color grade G, clarity grade VS; platinum.

Listen to this description: Brilliant melee diamonds are painsakingly hand-set in platinum by Tiffany's master jewellers. The delicate effect is reminiscent of the luminous fabric called voile.

Stunning. Really.

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Blog Ban Notice

On another note... I've been put on a blog ban by *Gallant on any other blog than mine. Simply because my ISM and other assignments are far from completion. I'm *allowed on my own site for purposes of ranting and self expression (so I don't tire him out, I think). =)

If it was not for my own good, he'd get a good *crack at the head for taking away such an online indulgence of mine.

Sunday, March 19, 2006

Demi-vegan

I, the Demi-Vegetarian

If you didn't know already, my independent study (final year project) is on Peter Singer and his utilitarian thought. Specifically, I am examining the philosophy of foreign aid (he argues that it is your obligation to give a substantial portion of your paycheck, eg, 10% to charity, etc). Although, I must say the more interesting bits are about his vegetarian and abortion policies.

Let me share a new bit of philosophy: I was cutting up a chicken carcass this morning (not to say that the chicken inspired me to blog but rather I now feel obligated to) and words from Peter Singer started to taunt me. *Moral me started to worry about my participation in the 'flesh industry', and truly, it was a gruesome thought as I saw through skin, flesh, bone with my sharp blade, feeling each tear through the flesh (Singer said to not use 'meat' as it makes the animal a food automatically... so no 'pork' but 'pig' and no 'beef' but 'cow', yeah?) and hear each cracking rib bone. Pressure had to be applied to get the blade through.

Really, more sessions of chicken carcass cutting will make a pure vegetarian out of me. Truthfully, I hope it does.

In the meantime, I can't help but to confess to you that there is a difficulty to give up meat (arghh... what can I use to substitute the word?) completely. Not because I enjoy the taste so much but variety is a luxury and vegetarian food can only offer so little options. Furthermore, society (and dates) makes it difficult to confine others to my diet and myself away from lovely restaurants. Third, there are health issues involved where meat proteins are necessary for the body.

Which is why I currently subscribe to H.R. Hare's vegetarian philosophy. He calls it demi-vegetarianism. Hare sympathises the animal food industry but he argues that there is more damage done if we all become full vegetarians. He elaborates two of my concerns (society and health) quite impressively, and argues the economic and ecological need to continue some eating of animals. If you are keen to know more, I will be happy to share more details with you or lend you a copy of his essay, Why I am a demi-vegetarian. He defines demi-vegetarians:

"[Demi-Vegetarian] means someone who while not being a full vegetarian, let alone, vegan, eats little meat, and is careful what kinds of meat he or she eats. Usually the selection is on dietetic grounds (lean meat rather than fat, fish rather than meat, etc); but no doubt moral considerations come in too."

Hare's relevant point is this: eat only the minimal amount of meat you need. This way, it would be unnecessary for the industry to be so cruel to the animals while still meeting dietary requirements, cravings for meat and (in my case) fulfilling *social obligations. If possible, eat more fish as he thinks they suffer less.

More important, I would like to share a plea he makes. Go for free range meat. In my case, I have been cooking up only kampung chickens lately (*bless their free-range souls). Being kampung chickens, they are not cooped up and run a little free-er than their farmed counterparts.

Markets (both the wet kind and economy kind) are based on principles of supply and demand. If we can make this little change, imagine the impact we can make for animals and it is not at so much of an inconvenience for us (no sacrifice of eating meat here, see).

Indulge me please: Eat more fish and only buy kampung (free-range) chickens.

This community service message was brought to you by the *Damsel who now realises that her avoidance of KFC should be made into a boycott.

Saturday, March 18, 2006

this little piggie

this little piggie...

I realize that my drawing is equivalent/or less of a child in kindergarten. In my defense, any training I had in arts involved calligraphy, paper art, folding, stenciling, etc... but not with a pencil, charcoal, colours and definitely NOT a mouse.

So this was for laughs. And believe it or not, it is a personality test! Here: go take it.

apple of my eye

I'm so proud!

I can't help but to feel a rush of pride as I see the object of my affections deliver the opening speech for his pet project - the NUS Scholars' Programme / World Bank Symposium on Youth and foreign aid in Southeast Asian countries. He spoke with his usual quiet, confident charm, looking wonderful in his favourite Hugo Boss blazer... I won't be surprised if he has a new following of girl fans from this (oh no!).

Before I left, he was being interviewed by a circle of journalists, and earlier, in the company of two World Bank directors, Professors and a director from IMF. And he still manages to throw a smile or two my way.

If there is one thing I am certain of, my man is destined for great things.

Thursday, March 16, 2006

blackout

of Blackouts and Birthday Wishes

My long post of my thoughts on the Malaysian Feul hike and newfound hate for the government was all lost when a blackout happened in my residence. I've just switched to my laptop batteries but it was ironic really, as at that very moment I was typing about press blackout regarding the event of the fuel protest at KLCC.

It has been a tiring day and I wish I have to motivation (or electricity) to carry on with the bulk of work left.

Thankfully, there was my pilates class in between giving enough time for management to get the power up. I'm now tucked into a bowl of instant noodles as I dream about an ideal (yes, cliche too) birthday.

It starts with a nice facial three days before (as all vain women know it takes three days for the redness to subside fully). Of course it should be a surprise, along with the couple spa booked for two girlfriends (because it won't be nice alone) for the afternoon of the said day, as pampering is most necessary.

I would love to be woken up in the morning with a kiss to start the day by my love. That and pancakes with organic honey, strawberries and fresh milk (yes, the one directly from the *moo moo cow) and a copy of the paper from home (how he gets it, I wouldn't know but it is my *fantasy). Having no classes that day (I wish) we spend the morning in reading papers and talking about home. Morning cartoons are compulsory too.

Then he bundles me off for lunch with good friends. He makes reservations at a restaurant for all of us, and the gentleman that he is picks up the tab and makes little gift bags for all of us (this one is really far fetched but allow me!). He knows them so well because I talk about my favourite people so often.

Followed by a lazy afternoon in the spa (manicure and pedicure, hair and makeup too all done), and then he picks me up for a quick tea at a cafe with a new book he chooses that just so happen to be perfect for me. We cuddle and read.

Then a surprise of a pretty dress by some talented yet-to-be-discovered designer (don't you just love it, thinking you've *discovered someone?). Although, the piece de resistance is a single pink solitaire diamond pendant necklace that settles near my heart.

Dinner will be at a place near lush green forests on a high breezy hill or on the shores of a beach (I can't decide). He pre-orders a perfect combination my favourite food accompanied by that special bottle of wine that we've kept for a special occasion like this.

A long walk on that hill (or along the beach) under the stars. He then makes a promise that everyday will be my birthday.

Monday, March 13, 2006

a clip like this

a clip like this...

... inspires heart tingling emotions out of me. (love the song too)

*Gallant has been the ultimate pillar of strength for me lately. It is okay to be sad or feeling less-than-the-best, because he'll always be my backup.

Boyfriends, he would claim, are for waking up at 8am (the pig in him can sleep till 4pm if he wants) to print my last minute application forms and see me off for my editorial test (it went okay). He comes with an in-built function, where one swift leg movement can pin me down on the bed and make sure I have a good 45 minutes catnap before I get back to work on my essay. Boyfriends too are for tickling you till you laugh and cry hard when you are just too darn stressed-out.

The editorial test went fine. The editing for context part was a test for creativity and the "meticulous typesetting editing" part I can do. I was really not too sure about the grammar part but I promise if I get the job I'll go memorize many grammar books, kay!

On a quasi-related, I-have-to-*gloat-about-about-this-flirt note, I met a really cute science degree *detractor, editor wannabe, Chinese-Auzzie, I-play-Jazz-at-Harry's-on-Sunday, can-I-have-your-number type of *friend at the editorial test. This one came with a motorcycle, irrisitable smile and a *stylo bald head.

*sigh. =) It was then *proven that *nothing could pry my heart away from my guy.

Friday, March 10, 2006

interviews

First Time Interviews!

A few resumes have been sent out. Two by classifieds and a handful last week at the career fair. The classifieds both called me back for interviews (and an editorial test, eep!). The first is a consumer insight planner position with Idealog (interview rainchecked to later next week), and the second is for an editorial position with Marshall Cavendish (editorial test on Monday).

The Duty Free Shop, Singapore just called me up today. I've met them at the career fair and they are looking for Management Trainees. Not exactly the intellectually challenging opportunity and world changing career I've been looking for, but I can't be too choosy and must take them all as good experiences. Anyway, who knows what could come out of it? =P

The horrible part is all the assignments that I am currently having to do despite all this rush (and preparation) for interviews. I'm actually brushing up on my grammar to avoid any embarrassment to the Queen's English... or myself. I'm dependent on spelling and grammar checks!

Long, long week ahead. Assignments and interviews - both priorities of different kinds.

p.s. Can someone assure me I don't look like a real estate agent, please?

Sunday, March 05, 2006

new home

new home

I've just signed the one year contract for my new home. Going to move in this May (after graduation). Father & Mother *Damsel and *Gallant joined me for the contract signing to take a look at the place.

It is a cozy executive apartment (HDB for the Sg wizen) with acceptable ceiling height, bright airy interior, marble pinkish hue floors and comfortable-for-single-girl-cooking kitchen. I've got pretty tall demands for an apartment (especially with my meager price tag) and this place I can gladly call home.

I'm practically house sitting for the family of three with the price I'm paying. They've left whatever furniture they've got for me (very few, as they have a hyperactive two-year-old that bumps into *everything hence the get-rid-of-furniture culture) and even a vacuum cleaner. It is a three bedroom place (but they're keeping the master bedroom) and I've yet to find me a room mate. Thing is, the place suits me just perfect and I just couldn't pass.

It'll be in Ang Moh Kio, a place near town and there's a park and a library merely a few minutes walk away. I've recently discovered that a few close friends live really near so there will always be dinner companions (but I will be wanting to travel further if it is for dinner with the likes of *sheer, *fongky and *jules to name a few).

Father & Mother *Damsel and *Gallant are quite impressed with the place. In fact, *Gallant seems keen to help me fix up the place with my many decoration ideas.

I'm thinking comfortable arm chairs for reading (with the lamp over the chair too, like 'em furniture catalogues), a zen like coffee table, a much bigger fishbowl for Po, pretty curtains, mirrors to open up the spaces, folding partisan, pictures, artwork and lots and lots of plants & blooms to make the best use out of the natural light that comes into the home. And at 15th floor, there's plenty of cool breeze from the unblocked scenery yet little heat from the sun.

I can't wait till it all comes together. When time comes, there will definitely be dinner parties at MY place!

Thursday, March 02, 2006

sick fish

get well soon, dearest Poseidon

My goldfish, Poseidon, is swimming upsidedown. He has a swim bladder problem, and thankfully, it is not fatal (cross fingers).

Poseidon is in a most uncomfortable, upsidedown position, because his thoughtless owner decided to feed him with bread today (and some pear last night) which had expanded in his little tummy, causing his goldfish anatomy to be unbalanced, hence unable to swim properly.

I've called every vet in Singapore from Clementi to Katong and Yio Chu Kang. Only a few treat fishes and all are not working today. The next available one is on Saturday... afternoon.

I'm assured that Poseidon will be alright by the kindly receptionist. Maybe it will even go away by tomorrow. Until then, Poseidon has to go on a fast.

Still, it worries me as it is a sight so unnatural and visibly alarming to see my pet swimming upsidedown.

update @ 9.30pm: I watched Poseidon, after my late night Pilates class, from his upsidedown position with his sad, hurt eyes, suddenly flip over, do a few laps around the bowl and continued after to stay upright. I'm glad to say that he is doing very fine right now.

*Gallant said to Poseidon, "Naughty boy. You didn't have to go all the way to feign near death just to tell her that you didn't like eating bread."

Haha... nyawa nyawa ikan.

My Poseidon is a strong, stubborn, lovable and funny fish.

Thank goodness though, as I must add that the vet fees quoted was SGD $31.95 for consultation, extra for medication and goodness knows how much for cab fare for a half hour ride to the clinic and back. Poseidon was a $4.50 fish... then again his net worth did increase *radically exponentially for all the love we give him and him in return.

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

thankfully, I've upgraded

thankfully, I've upgraded

Due to a past incident, I've contacted my good for nothing ex-boyfriend from more than six years ago last November.

When he realised I wasn't there to ask him to get back into a relationship, he *turned on his charm* and of course I didn't bother to reply.

Last night, he decided to send me a guilt letter:

Date: Tuesday, February 28, 2006 19:45:00
Subject: I'm feel very guilty
Message: first of all, i'm feel very guilty the way i treat you in
the past, hope you'll accept my apologise and
forgive me, i don't mean it!!

Anyway, i do really happy and appreciate it when
we're together..Once a while, i really do think of
you..When we're together, eventhough when i walk
with you

Blah blah, how is life getting on there? As for me
as usual..How is work?

I do remember, i promise you a lot of thing n I
doesn't have the chance to fruitfill it and prove it to
you.

I do sad n dissappointed when we're far apart,
since the last word I with you...Keep in
touch ya, we're still fren

Oh yeah, I'm soooo *moved by your bad English to forget all the as*hole deeds and be your fren.

The funny thing is, I use to call is English 'cute'. It was me blinded by infatuation for him then. The reality is this guy is no good. He had cheated on me, repeatedly, in what was suppose to be a time of innocent secondary four love.