shut my ears

Blocked, if even for a moment

Life is not looking at its best right now. I've been working 3 weeks in a row late nights, no weekends and have forgo 2 public holidays. No taxi claim even for these neverending days and nights. Time off is promised, but no time to take them! Seriously though, one or two days off for 3 weeks is no compensation!

I'm straddling three offices and handling workload from all three sides -- the outgoing and incoming Presidents, and the Development office. Only in June I will officially go under the incoming President's office... but goodness knows work from other ends will still continue until the end of the year.

I don't have time to work out and if not my waistline, my paranoia is making me think that pounds are creeping up on me - again - from all this sitting around the desk. My housemate continues to be a horror, and it is going to take me all of 2 months to finish Jung Chang's Wild Swans. I'm going through career existentialism, personal ego bruise and bashing, and taking too long a break from seeing my friends... but frankly, not really wanting to see most people as well.

Sunday was a no work day (except for 2 hours in the evening). I sprang to the chance to scrub the toilet, mop floors and wipe the dust in the bedroom. The worst thing for a neat freak to come back to after a long day of work is a dusty and messy room. Horror housemate made it worst -- big tea spills in the kitchen and stains on the dining table. I prepared lunch and dinner too on Sunday and had a long shopping trip in the market, buying fresh fruits of the season. Naturally, by 7pm, I was exhausted and wanted to sleep.

But horror housemate had to have guests over for dinner. Panic one -- mess he will leave behind. Panic two -- loud, wall piercing voices in unrecognizable languages. I guess I have no right to stop him from bringing guests, but he could have not picked a better time. I struggled and tossed involuntarily as if I was having a nightmare... thankfully soon smothered by *Gallant's strong hug and strategically placed cheek over my ear blocking up the noise, and for a moment, all my worry in the world.

We must have stayed like that for an hour or two until the rowdy crowd left us to our peace. Sigh. What I will give to get peace like that again, for good.